Midnight Radio

2005-10-08T01:01:00.000-05:00

Every day that I'm alive, I seem to hate more and more people more and more thoroughly...fuck you...fuck you very much!

2005-10-06T17:26:00.000-05:00

A- Age: 21 B- Band you are listening to right now: Harvey Danger...obscure much?C- CD Last Purchased: Probably either Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon or Dirty Rotten Scoundrels cast albumD- Dad's name: BenE- Easiest people to talk to: Max, Lauren, Camille, JeniF- Favorite ice cream- I've never met an ice cream I didn't likeG- Gummy worms or gummy bears?: Gummy Worms all the way... and not the

2005-10-05T22:21:00.000-05:00

so i went to type in the URL for blogger, and the keyboard didn't feel right...so i looked down , and it was upside down....i'm a moron. (note: I have a wireless keyboard and mouse, and no computer chair, so I type sitting on the floor leaning against my bed with the keyboard on my lap. This is the way the upside-down keyboard was possible). every time i blog, i get the feeling that fewer and

2005-09-07T01:23:00.000-05:00

hey all...its about 1:30am and I decided to pop onto the ol' Blogger and update. Nothing really significant to say...yet. I interviewed at Hacienda last night. It went well I feel. The manager is supposed to call me sometime this week and set up a time for a second interview. Hopefully I get this job. I need this job. I need a job. I'm so sick of not having a job. Here's hopin'.So I had a pretty

2005-09-02T04:11:00.000-05:00

well its 4:15am and I CAN'T SLEEP. This sucks. I have a lot on my mind, but I don't think that that's it. I'm just not at all tired. I mean usually if I can't sleep because i'm thought-ridden, I'm at least tired. Ugh.I'm sitting here watching The Last 5 Years on my computer (god bless Broadway bootlegs!). I forgot just how much I love this show. What a dream it would be to be able to be in this

2005-09-01T02:51:00.000-05:00

so yeah...its been a while. between looking for a job, deciding to NOT go to USI this semester, deciding to go to Ivy Tech this semester, temporarily working on Max's new house, and catching up with people, i've not had much time to blog. As previously mentioned, I have forsaken USI this semester for Ivy Tech. My major at Ivy Tech is Building and Construction Managment....but i really just wanna

2005-08-03T23:57:00.000-05:00

3 words....I'M BACK BITCHES!!! just got home from NY today....i'm f-ing tired. So to bed i go...i'll post more when i've had more sleep (i've not slept since 10am EDT yesterday morning...its now midnight CDT...thats 38 hours...)

2005-07-14T01:43:00.000-05:00

so again, sorry for the delay in the posting. Its been hellish.So the top story on tonights broadcast; I turned 21 on July 6th. A bunch o' people came over to The Big House (the unofficial name for the house in which I live in NY) and we got, as Schmuel (if he were real) would say "fuhshnikit". Goldschlager + Capt. Morgan Tattoo + Parrot Bay + beer = Burgdorf can't feel his face. it was fun

2005-06-28T17:32:00.000-05:00

Which Trainspotting Character Are You?

2005-06-23T22:12:00.000-05:00

ok so i do apologize for not updating this thing in a while. Many of you have asked me for an update (and by "many", i mean Lucille), so here ya go.Things are going well. We're in tech/dress rehearsals for Cosi Fan Tutte and Lucie De Lamammor. Since I'm only on the crew for Cosi, I've been getting some days off, but since our shows go in rep (meaning we do more than one show per week) we've had

2005-05-30T21:12:00.000-05:00

ok so things are getting a little better here in Cooperstown. This weekend/holiday have been pretty enojoyable. Sat. night, a bunch o' people came over, so i holed up in my room until the majority of the crowd dissapated (i'm not quite ready for a group of 20ish people I don't know), but once it started quieting down, i went down to the living room and a couple of my friends, Sam and Donna, were

2005-05-27T14:42:00.000-05:00

Ok so I FINALLY have internet access here in New York. thank god...i was going apeshit without it. so yeah, its...umm...interesting here. I'm living in a HUGE house with like 10 other people. I'm working at Glimmerglass Opera. I work in Cooperstown and I live in Richfield Springs. lemme explain the lay out of this area...i can drive through 5 towns in 15 minutes. yeah...TINY TINY TINY little

2005-05-06T04:24:00.000-05:00

people, i have some rivveting and exciting news. I am now officially done with school for the next 3 1/2 months. that's right, I took my last two finals today, and I am so happy to be done with them.So I leave in like a week for Cooperstown, NY to start my internship at Glimmerglass Opera. I'm uber-excited, and a little freaked out. I just really don't know what to expect, ya know? I'm sure I'll

2005-04-27T00:22:00.000-05:00

hello all. I must preface this post with a disclaimer...so here goes.. I AM DOPED UP ON DARVOCET RIGHT NOW! I AM NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR WHAT I SAY IN THIS POST!thats right. dumb-fuck Burgdorf here pulled a muscle in his lower back on Sun., and now I'm in a lot of pain. Well...at this moment i'm not. I'm stoned as hell for the Darvocet the doc prescribed me. but i was in immense pain all day today.

2005-04-22T01:51:00.000-05:00

the most ADORABLE picture of Kensington

2005-04-20T13:12:00.000-05:00

Congratulations to Bennifer Garfleck... Oh that Affleck! Matty D unavailable for comment...

2005-04-19T13:17:00.000-05:00

ok so i'm in the basement of the L.A. right now, and its about 1:20pm. My next class isn't until 3 and I didn't go to my morning class. Now, you may be asking yourself, "Why the hell are you still there Burgdorf?" The answer is quite simple. I fucking forgot that my 1:30 musical theater class was cancelled for today... son of a bitch. So now I don't know what to do with myself for an hour and a

2005-04-18T10:22:00.000-05:00

ok so here are some INSANELY funny quotes i found...enjoy!A Plan for the Improvement of English Spellingby Mark TwainFor example, in Year 1 that useless letter "c" would be dropped to be replased either by "k" or "s", and likewise "x" would no longer be part of the alphabet. The only kase in which "c" would be retained would be the "ch" formation, which will be dealt with later. Year 2 might

2005-04-17T01:46:00.000-05:00

ok so right away i'm gonna tell y'all that i'm drunk...just to get that out of the way. well...i'm not DRUNK persay, but i'm at that PERFECT level of buzzing where i'm numb, but i was able to drive home with no problem. Its a great feeling. I love it.Special thanks to Lauren tonight for having one fucking fun "gathering" at her apt. it was totally good times. there was alkeehol, there was great

2005-04-16T02:38:00.000-05:00

oye oye oye... soooo much on my mind right now. why do i always fall for da ladies who have boyfriends... maybe its my gluttony for punishment.but anywho, things are actually going rather well. Little Shop opened on Wed. and I think that it is going swimmingly. I think we have a really awesome show, and people seem to be really entertained by it. so thats fun.a little irked about my discovery of

2005-04-11T01:05:00.000-05:00

ok so i'm going to do something i haven't done in a while...write another infamous Burgdorf rant... and in this one, i am totally going to indict myself. Thanks to a wonderful river-side chat with my Lucille v5.0, I really did some thinking about myself, my feelings, and the situations in which I put myself.My biggest mistake is confusing romantic love with that sort of transcending love that

2005-04-04T23:20:00.000-05:00

This is TOOOOOO funny...check it out guys:The Top 100 Things I'd Do If I Ever Became An Evil Overlord

2005-04-03T15:40:00.000-05:00

I had totally forgotten about this song...every time i hear it, i damn near cry everytime. Its just such a beautiful song...just wanted to shareMotorcycle Drive-Byby Third Eye BlindSummer time and the wind is blowingOutside in lower ChelseaAnd I don't knowWhat I'm doing in the cityThe sun is always in my eyesIt crashes through the windowsAnd I'm sleeping on the couchWhen I came to visit youThat's

2005-04-02T02:39:00.000-06:00

ok so i'm reeeeeaaaallly bored....[Name]: Nathan Burgdorf[Spell your name backwards]: Frodgrub Nahtan[Birthdate]: 07/06/84[Birthplace]: Valparaiso, IN[Current Location]: Evansville, IN[Eye Color]: Greenish-blueish-yellowish[Hair Color]: brown with a tint of red[Righty or Lefty]: righty[Innie or Outtie]: Innie[Who is your worst enemy?]:My self[If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it

2005-04-02T02:12:00.000-06:00

ok so i think i'm better...maybe. the past 2 days have been good. sure I may for a brief moment get a little bummed, but thats a far stretch better than i have been. i think that last post was great catharsis for me. it wasn't about anyone in particular. just a culmination of general feelings i've felt for a long long time. i'm sorry if anyone took offense to it. not intended.I'm happy for a

2005-03-31T23:21:00.000-06:00

Yay for great pics!!Burgdorf, Cara, and Kensington a little tipsyBurgdorf, Kensington and Cara at Turoni'sCara and Kensington

2005-03-31T22:18:00.000-06:00

OH MY GOD!!! Mitch Hedberg died!!!!!!!

2005-03-31T00:20:00.000-06:00

Untitled Burgdorf OriginalFor every smile you wearAnother wears a frownTonight, I'm the latterYour life is full of loveMine full of heartacheYou get happier,while I just get sadderJoy is a luxuryyou can affordI'm barely scrapingfor tsurisYou see thingsso clearly nowbut I can't tellwhat that blur is-----------ugh, it started out such a good day. beautiful weather, well rested....but this evening

2005-03-29T13:20:00.000-06:00

so i only have 10 minutes before musical theater class starts, but i have a song stuck in my head that i wanna post... this one is for Shiksa..because I care...Big Ass Rockfrom The Full MontyLet's find a rock, I mean a big ass rock. Or maybe something like a cinder block, Is better. I'll hoist it up, And drop it on your face, My buddy. And just before the lights go out, You'll see my smile, And

2005-03-28T23:04:00.000-06:00

So i just wanted to give a long overdue thank you to Melissa for introducing me to The Last 5 Years. I've been listening to it on a loop for the past few days now and its really helped me get through some of the bullshit I've been going through these past couple of weeks. It is such an amazing show. The music is so lush and beautiful, the story very unique yet universal. So thank you Ms. Hardin

2005-03-28T04:05:00.000-06:00

Why am I blogging at 4am? Why am I not asleep? Oh, I know...because that 3 hour nap this afternoon was a REALLY STUPID thing for me to do. Eh...oh well.Lots to talk about.So this weekend was amazingly fun. Fri. afternoon was spent cleaning my truck out, which desperately needed to happen. Then that evening, Camille had her birthday bash out at Hacienda. Lots of fun people there. After Hacienda,

2005-03-25T16:32:00.000-06:00

Stole this from Julie's blog. I'm really bored, so why the hell not....001. I miss somebody right now.002. I watch more tv than I used to.003. I love olives.004. I love sleeping.005. I own lots of books.006. I wear glasses or contact lenses007. I love to play video games.008. I've seen a porn movie at some time in my life whether I'm proud of that timeor not.009. Why is #9 missing?010. I have

2005-03-20T23:13:00.000-06:00

ugh...i'm done with it. some things have got to change, and I'm going to change them. I'm tired of feeling like shit all the time. To quote Billy Joel, "I don't know why I go to extremes." I'm either really up or really down. right now, i'm the latter, and I don't know why. Well I do but this is neither the time or place to discuss it. All I can say is the bullshit has gotta stop, and I'm going

2005-03-14T10:17:00.000-06:00

Be afraid...be very afraid...

2005-03-14T02:19:00.000-06:00

there used to be a cartoon on MTV called The Maxx or something like that, in which this giant purple thing with a row of HUGE teeth could go in between these two worlds. The real world, which is the world we live in, and this other world, that was like an African savannah. I wish I had that ability. To be able to, at the drop of a hat, go to a completely diffreent world and just think things out

2005-03-13T02:20:00.000-06:00

once again i have returned after a long hiatus. I've been soooooooooo f-ing busy lately, I haven't had time to post. But this means I have stuff to talk about. Treat for all you who still read this god, and author, forsaken thing.So highlight of my past couple of weeks was that I went to SETC in Greensboro, NC. Had a blast. Interviewed with a whole bunch of theater companies, and ladies and

2005-02-28T22:36:00.000-06:00

You should probably shoulder up that cross. I hear its the new accessory for martyrs this year!sorry, I felt that should be said.AnyMcWhoozleman, I leave for SETC tomorrow night. I'm uber-excited! Plus, my Federal tax return came in the other day. Tonight, I bought the Hedwig and the Angry Inch Cast Album. Not the movie soundtrack, the off-off-Broadway cast album. Hell to the muthafuckin' yizzeah

2005-02-27T02:46:00.000-06:00

i had a post here. However, due to my lack of judgement in wording said post, two very very dear people in my life were hurt by what i had said. So the post is gone because it came across differently than i had intended it to. I'm sorry to anyone who was concerned about me after reading the post, who was offended by the post. Shiksa and Lucille, I love you both so much. You are perhaps the two

2005-02-25T03:13:00.000-06:00

Hey everyone. I decided to use another blog to post a lot of my original writings. Right now its just poetry. Check it out though. I think you all will like it. Its under the "My Entertainment" section of my links. Lemme know what ya think on the TagBoard

2005-02-25T01:48:00.000-06:00

This song keeps running through my head so I thought I would post it... its sorta how I'm feeling right now...Sidewaysby Matt CaplanLost my train of thought around ChicagoFound a little solace where you layNever made collages as a young childNot that much to seeSo much to sayNow even in this silence there's a thunderAnd rain that steals teh breath beneath this cageAnd at least I've got your

2005-02-20T04:19:00.000-06:00

ah yes...i am back. Sorry I haven't posted in a few days. Been uber-busy with the whole Antigone thing. ASMing is a great thing sometimes, and it really sucks sometimes. Like I love being pseuo-in-charge, but I hate how boring it is during the actual run of the show. I sit backstage and do NOTHING for like an hour and 20 mintues. Boring as all fuck. But, I think the show is going really well. I'm

2005-02-14T23:59:00.000-06:00

Ok, so today is Valentine's Day, which means those who have a significan other are all happy and elated and everything, and a lot of those who don't are resentful. So I feel it is time for me to go into a rant on relationships, and who should and should not be in them. So I will start right away with my thesis statement.If you aren't enough without someone, you're sure as hell not going to be

2005-02-14T14:08:00.000-06:00

This is directly from the Arrested Development section on the Fox Broadcasting Company website:"Dear Arrested Development Fans:Thank you for your e-mail and your passionate support of Arrested Development. While the show has finished production for its second season, contrary to the rumors you may have heard or read on the internet, it is NOT cancelled.We at FOX love Arrested Development and we

2005-02-13T23:52:00.000-06:00

"You should die! You can't even spell Michael right! You whore!" --- My lovely lovely little Lucille v.5.That girl makes me laugh a whole whole lot.TECH REHEARSALS SUCK!!! 14 hours at the Mallette on a Sun. Fuck that shit. Oh well, it wasn't that bad. Just really bored. and tired.Don't jump on the bandwagon...especially if you aren't part of the band.Yay for disjointed babblings.Skipty Skapta

2005-02-12T18:15:00.000-06:00

La vid'e bella...for the most part. I'm tired as fuck right now. Had dry tech for Antigone this morning at 10am...went to bed at like 3 or 4. Not too bad...not great though. Today was SOOOOO boring. Tomorrow is going to be SOOOOOO boring too.I'm a little irked that I can't go see Kensington in Vagina Monologues tonight. I just absolutely cannot afford it. I love ya sugar. I totally support you. I

2005-02-11T10:50:00.000-06:00

Ok so I am going to hereby retract last night's post...not the poem, the one before that. I'm going to chalk that up to being jittery due to my medicine/quitting smoking. I don't know why I freaked like I did. Its not a big fucking deal. I just have to pursue other options now. I'm hoping that I'm not developing some sort of manic/depression or bipolarism or something. But I don't really go to

2005-02-11T01:26:00.000-06:00

Ok so I just wrote this. I think this is one of my best works to date. what do y'all think? lemme know. Sorry for the impressive vernacular. I was in a wordy mood.Shades of GrayThe stars dont mean a thingIf I can't gaze upon youlike we used to them.Their incandescence,their illumination,giving your irisesa piercing twinkleas if God himselfplaced the stars in your eyes.The fluorescent moon looks

2005-02-11T00:08:00.000-06:00

I think it may be time for a plan B....i think plan A is just a little fucked right now....i dont know though..this cannot happen again...this cannot happen again.....this cannot happen again....i'm really jittery right now....took my diet pill late today....totally jittery. plus i'm a little frantic right now.... i just need to calm the fuck down.... this sucks this sucks this sucks... i thought

2005-02-09T22:27:00.000-06:00

So i'm in an odd little funk right now. I'm not depressed by any means. I'm actually quite happy. But it just feels something is missing. Something is not quite right with my life at the moment. I don't really know what it is. I just really can't seem to verbalize what I'm feeling. I'm emotional, yet at the same time disgustingly apathetic. I don't know. 90% of life is great right now. I'm

2005-02-08T01:40:00.000-06:00

(time to sound like a really awful DJ) With the exception of the middle section, this is for the really important ladies in my life right now who are feeling unappreciated, who are still hurting, and/or think no one cares about them. One or two in particular. I love you so much. I appreciate everything you've all done for me. If I could fix everything I would. In a heartbeat. But that empathy is

2005-02-07T01:56:00.000-06:00

how to suceed in being a jackass without even trying: Open mouthInsert footHalfway through the phrase, immediately try to stopUnable to stop, you are left looking like a jackass It time of incident you will feel like total shit...however, once your jackassity has been forgiven and explained away, all involved will chuckle with glee. Such was my night. Life is weird. Just when you think you've

2005-02-06T16:26:00.000-06:00

sorry about last night's post... it was really late, I was really tired and in a really bad mood. Things are gonna get worked out though, I swear.

2005-02-06T05:14:00.000-06:00

FUCK IT....i quit.... this is the 2nd time this has happened now. Don't ask what I'm talking about...I won't tell you. I'm just a bit depressed/angry right now. Matt Caplan is playing on a loop. Those of you who know the significance of this will get an idea of what's wrong with me. It's not that I am hiding on the roof or underneath your table It's not that I'm counting down from 10 or playing

2005-02-04T13:31:00.000-06:00

The following are quotes from my Psych professor. A lot of them are paraphrased though.I was laughing my ass off: "2 year olds tend to be egocentric. Now normally when people hear the word 'egocentric' they think of being cocky. That'd be weird, a 2 year old being cocky. (imitates a toddler walk, then thrusts his hands up in the air) 'I RULE!!'" "My uncle was a priest and my aunt was a nun...

2005-02-04T10:19:00.000-06:00

hello everyone. if you are still reading this, that means that my recent posts have not scared you away, and that is good. just to let y'all know, all that drama has been pretty much worked out. so, no more really personal rants for a while. back to the same ol' social-commentary for which i am "famous," to use the term loosely. This week as been a good week puncuated by some moments of

2005-02-01T01:12:00.000-06:00

ok so finally something positive.....as many of you well know for about a month now i have been on a doctor-prescribed diet pill to help get the ol' weight down to a safe level. So i stepped on the scale this morning and in the past month i have gone from 340lbs to (drum roll please)...................310lbs. Yes ladies and gents, that is 30 lbs in a month. and all the people said "god damn,

2005-01-31T23:41:00.000-06:00

ok...got a good rant going on...i apologize in advance because this is about certain people in particular. so don't read this rant if you don't care. I'm in kind of a bad mood, so i'm going to be honest and harsh. you have been warned. Ok, so first of all, just because you say something over and over and over again, doesn't mean it will all of a sudden happen. If you like someone, and they

2005-01-30T06:22:00.000-06:00

P.S. I just realized how honest alcohol + lack of sleep makes me...if I weren't buzzing and well rested, I probably wouldn't have just posted that big long paragraph. Oh well

2005-01-30T06:00:00.000-06:00

I just topped the "3am and this is a problem" line in my last post...it is now 6:01 am, and this is definately a problem. but i have some funny stories to tell..really only one right now, but another one might come to me so tonight, i went over to Scotty's (or Helen as I like to call him) apartment, and we drank and watched movies. There were these 2 really sweet, pretty cute girls there. So I

2005-01-28T03:06:00.000-06:00

Ok so its 3am, and i'm still awake. This is a problem because i have a class at 9am, which means i have to be awake at 8am. curses to this insomnia. actually, curses to the DVD-decrypting software i've been trying to figure out for the past, oh, 2 hours. I guess thats what i get for trying to pirate DVDs. I'll get it tomorrow. I hope. So I'm watching the movie The Shape of Things. Wow, lemme

2005-01-26T21:47:00.000-06:00

Mr. Constatine Maroulis as Hedwig, the internationally ignored song stylist barely standing before you.

2005-01-26T01:46:00.000-06:00

Another day, another rant. ya know. There comes a point when you can't help someone anymore. you try and you try and you try, but still they miss the f-ing point. they mistake a detail for the theme. but what do you do at that point? do you let them continue to indulge in their gluttony for punishment? i think the answer is ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY. Pardon my Zulu. sorry i must interrupt my rant to

2005-01-24T02:56:00.000-06:00

(Sung to the tune of "Tune Up #1" from Rent) January 24th, 3AM Central Standard Time/ from here on in I'm not going to sleep a wink/ 'cause i had too much fucking coffee/ at Denny's with Katie such is the bane of my existence...oh well. So things are going well. I apologize again for the downness of my last post. For all concerned, everything regarding the disclaimered section of that post has

2005-01-20T22:24:00.000-06:00

ok so i'm back. Its been a HELL of a week. busy busy busy busy busy. where do i begin? So classes are going rathah well. I'm dropping Humanities and picking up Musical Theater. Should be fun. That will put me at 1 core class this semester. can i get a hallelujah...god i hate core curriculum. My psychology prof seems really f-ing cool though. I'm in the class with Scott, Kelli, Amanda, and a few

2005-01-13T10:27:00.000-06:00

ok so I wasn't gonna post anything personal today, just the 2 essays, but upon reading people's blogs, I feel the need to share with you, the readers of the blog, a little observation I've made. If you think that I'm talking about "you", I'm not...this is an observation I've made from lots and lots of different sources, myself included. Whenever people talk about what they look for in a person of

2005-01-13T10:14:00.000-06:00

Planes, Trains and Plantanes: The Story of Oedipus this is one of the funniest f-ing essays I've ever read...obviously a fake, but still hilarious. Doesn't always work right...sorry if it doesn't....here's an essay just as funny, if not funnier. This is some dude's college entrance exam...prepare to laugh your ass off! "I am a dynamic figure, often seen scaling walls and crushing ice. I have

2005-01-01T20:27:00.000-06:00

oh wow...this thing is still here! its been a while since i've been here. Christmas was good...I got a DVD burner. that means that the MPAA is going to HATE me. I'm going to renting movies, and then burning my own copies, then takin' 'em back. hahahahahahaha damn the man! I saw a LOT of movies over the break... Phantom of the Opera, Shaun of the Dead*, Collateral, Napoleon Dynamite, Anchorman*

2004-12-17T23:40:00.000-06:00

Nice to hear devotion still exists in Hollywood today... High-5 to Mr. Pitt for being a good husband... Pitt Supports Grieving Aniston Hollywood heart-throb Brad Pitt has reportedly cancelled his Ocean's Twelve promotional activities in Britain to support his wife Jennifer Aniston as she mourns her close friend's death. The actress is taking a break from filming new movie Derailed in London to

2004-12-13T10:46:00.000-06:00

----------------- THE BASICS-------------------- -Name: Nathan Burgdorf -Birthday: 07/06/1984 -Nicknames: Burgy, Burgdorf, Burg, Nate, Big Nate, Silent Bob among others -Favorite band: Billy Joel, Barenaked Ladies, Pink Floyd-----------------YOU PREFER-------------------- -Pepsi or coke: regular - Coke -McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King -Adidas or Nike: Adidas -Chocolate or vanilla:

2004-12-08T13:17:00.000-06:00

There needs to be more people like this in the world

2004-12-05T04:50:00.000-06:00

I swear my life is like a movie sometimes. My movie at this point seems to be a dark comedy. I enjoy dark comedies. This is day 3 of my good mood. Wa to the mutha f*ckin' HOO!! Lord knows karma has tried to thwart my good mood but it has thus far lost the good fight. Lets keep this up.

2004-12-01T23:55:00.000-06:00

Hello all I don't know how many of you still read this thing, but to those of you who do I first would like to thanks for taking an interest in my life. Secondly I just want to express a thought I had. I know I bitch and moan a lot on this thing. Don't think that I want you to pity me or anything. This is just a place for my catharsis and to get shit off my mind. And hopefully someone will find

2004-11-30T23:48:00.000-06:00

This article is great. South Park Republicans

2004-11-30T21:24:00.001-06:00

This is just something that I wrote...hope ya like: Abandoned----------------You're bleeding empty and still You're bruised tired and ill abandoned, lonely forsaken and weary your face is dirty your eyes are teary >Chorus< When everyone has gone and left you all alone I will bring you the world and carry the weight of it all When there's nothing and no one I will be here for you You're crying

2004-11-29T22:50:00.000-06:00

I'm back... with a vengence! Not really a vengence, just a minor irritation really. OK so apparently since I don't believe what my mom believes, I'm immature. I was under the impression that thinking for myself and not allowing myself to be swayed by inundation and being true to my feelings was maturity. How silly I was!!!! So it looks like I'm back to Sunday morning after Sunday morning going

2004-11-21T03:15:00.000-06:00

well if I didn't feel useless and ineffectual already, I do now. No one's fault though. I just have issues.

2004-11-16T22:20:00.000-06:00

Its been a while, but I have returned to my bloggature. So the show's goin' rathah well. Although I twisted my ankle on Fri. night in an unfortunate tequila incident, so Sat.'s performance sucked. Oh well...every show is allowed one bad night. I'm happy about the show over all. So after Playboy I have Madrigals. I really don't care all that much about Madrigals. I'm actually quite burnt out on

2004-11-10T01:58:00.000-06:00

from the IMDB news page: 'Alfie' Flop Blamed on Election Jude Law's latest film Alfie's poor results at the American box office have been blamed on last week's presidential election. The remake of the 1966 Michael Caine comedy only took $6.5 million during its opening weekend, and landed at number five in the US box office charts. Wayne Llewellyn, the president of distribution at Paramount,

2004-11-07T02:49:00.000-06:00

Ok so this may be the coolest fucking thing I've ever seen. This guy is amazing.

2004-10-30T04:03:00.000-05:00

This is a new song I just wrote...its my ode to Evansville...and how like no matter how boring it is, you always return, or you miss it a lot. Its almost an addiction...here goes Welcome to Nowhere [Chorus] Welcome to Nowhere A place more ordinary Without an interesting story The dreary delusion With little confusion Will find its little place In your heart Its an addiction And affliction A

2004-10-29T01:58:00.000-05:00

oh the predicaments of life. I just remembered I have a paper due in English on Fri....it is 1am on Fri. now, do I go to sleep now, wake up at 9 so i have write my paper before class at noon? or do I stay up late and write the paper now? oh the predicaments of life.

2004-10-29T01:27:00.000-05:00

wow...ok so i finally have an interesting story to tell. so I was at Wesselman's Park working on my monologue for Elliot's Acting 1 class, and I was there for like an hour and a half, but I totally lost track of time. Well all of a sudden this bright light flashes me and once my eyes readjusted, i realized it was a cop car. So I started making my way back to my truck, and he gets out of his car

2004-10-27T14:39:00.000-05:00

OOOH my god!! I hope this pans out!!!

2004-10-19T23:47:00.000-05:00

Somtimes fixing the source of the problem doesn't lead to a resolve. The residual damage has been done. That sucks. Enough about that. So Laramie is done....over...finished...unless of course we are accepted into ACTF, in which case we get to do it again. Had a really good run I feel... only one crappy night, in which I curled up into the fetal positioned and bawled my eyes out (not really...but

2004-10-17T23:44:00.000-05:00

ok....so i put in one of my old mixed CDs and i came across this song. I had completely forgotten about it. It pretty much sums up my feelings on my not believing when people say "I love you", even in the platonic sense. Thats one of many reasons I've been so down. People tell me they love me all the time, but I feel that they dont mean it. here goes. More Than Words by Extereme Saying "I love

2004-10-15T01:50:00.000-05:00

Today was a good day. I'm still not in a good mood, but at least it was a good day. Had a GREAT run of the show tonight. Probably the best I've done so far. OMG Annabelle and Miranda were at the show tonight. I haven't seen them in probably 5 or so years. WEEEEEIIIRRRD. It was really good to see them and get to talk to them again. So people really piss me off sometimes. Not really any ONE person

2004-10-14T01:28:00.000-05:00

This is just a little something i wrote tonight...hoping to turn it into a song. This is kinda how I feel right now. Its also a message that some people in my life should know. You're bleeding empty and still You're bruised tired and ill abandoned, lonely forsaken and weary your face is dirty your eyes are teary When everyone has gone and left you all alone I will bring you the world and carry

2004-10-12T21:18:00.000-05:00

"When did I realize I was God? Well, I was praying and I suddenly realized I was talking to myself." -Peter O'Toole this was on Jen's away message....and I laughed HYSTERICALLY!!! 200 cool points for Jen

2004-10-11T01:42:00.000-05:00

i now understand why the Gaelic language is no longer in prominent use...because its really fucking hard to pronounce....

2004-10-11T01:37:00.000-05:00

ok so after posting my last post (the one about the Gaelic language), I decided that thats not a real post, and i wanted to have a real post. so here goes. let the bitchfest commence I think i've pinpointed one part of my sadness. Boredom. I always feel that I'm encroaching upon other people's time, so i end up not doing anything with anyone. Then i start to feel resentful that they wouldn't

2004-10-09T02:39:00.000-05:00

questions i would like to ask God (if in fact he's there and listening): Why am I so sad? When do I get to be happy? Why the hell does blogger run so slow? I'm very tired, so I'm gonna try to keep this brief. The show is going so well. I'm totally happy with it. I don't this we could ask for a better run thus far. If you've not been in the loop, here's the rundown. The Laramie Project in the

2004-10-07T23:53:00.000-05:00

"We have reached a verdict, your honor. This man's heart is deficient. He loves, but his love is worth nothing." ---Prior from Angels in America sometimes thats how i feel about myself...

2004-10-07T13:09:00.000-05:00

And this is just to piss off all of you femenists out there!!! My how far we have come since the 50's

2004-10-07T11:10:00.000-05:00

They Might Be Giants, or They Might Be Broadway Musical Composers!!!

2004-10-06T01:56:00.000-05:00

oye oye oye oye oye as i quote an anxious old Jewish man.......anywho soooo Laramie opens in....oh...TOMORROW! really excited but still kinda nervous. a few kinks must still be worked out, but I trust they shall be worked out before performance time. It'll be nice to have a break once its over....oh wait....i dont get a break....'cause then I have Playboy rehearsals and such....and the

2004-10-03T01:04:00.000-05:00

after reading someone's blog, i felt this song was appropriate for them. enjoy Louder Than Words from Tick, Tick...BOOM! Why do we play with fire? Why do we run our finger through the flame? Why do we leave our hand on the stove Although we know we're in for some pain? Why do we refuse to hang a light Whenthe streets are dangerous? Why does it take an accident Before the truth gets through to

2004-10-01T01:40:00.000-05:00

FINALLY! something made me happy tonight!

2004-09-30T23:23:00.000-05:00

why am i doing this to myself again? i hate this feeling. why can't things just be easy for once? why can't i just get my way? UGH!! I'm like this emotional tesselation. The same ol' pattern just keeps repeating itself. This pretty much sums out how I feel inside. --from Exquisite Corpse from Hedwig and The Angry Inch-- Inside I'm hollowed out Outside's a paper shroud And all the rest's

2004-09-29T03:04:00.000-05:00

duuuuuun Duuuuuuuuuun DUUUUUUuuunnn DUN DUN!!!!! >theme from "2001: A Space Odessey< Yes, I am updating. I apologize for going so long without an update. I've just been really super busy. Between school, Laramie, auditions for Playboy (sexxxy Burgy), and family issues, I've just been swamped, stressed, and other adjectives as well. Laramie's going really well. I'm really glad things are shaping

2004-09-14T21:54:00.000-05:00

ok just to clear up some misconstruations, in my "nougats of wisdom" bit a few posts back, nothing in that list was aimed at anyone in particular. My sincerest apologies if you think i was talking about you. those were just things that i've noticed in my environment that has caused problems. I don't think one of them applied directly to my life, just using my blog for what its for, ranting. so